| | i just thought about how this father's day would have been nate's first. the first time i saw jack was 2 days before nate died. i am so incredibly grateful i was able to see him with jack. he had stuck jack in the baby sling and rested him on his belly. i wanted to cry when i saw him because i knew he would be the most amazing dad. and i'm sad it only lasted for 3 months. i found a few writings nate posted on his facebook when he first started it:
All
Right, I've finally given in and joined facebook. Carter Martin told me
he had pics of him playing Desagna Diop in basketball, and I wanted to
see them, so I joined. I'm also terrible at keeping in touch so this
way everyone whose email I wrote down on the back of a receipt that I
accidently threw away, I can get in touch with again. So to those who
fall into the aforementioned group, I apologize and I'd love to hear
how you're doing. To everyone, I'm going to be a father in less than
two weeks. Holy Crap! I
am now officially a father. I feel like an old man, but then i realize
I'm not and I am really just a kid with a kid and i have no idea what
I'm doing. I thought I knew what i was doing up until Jack popped his
head out gurgling amniotic fluid everywhere (it was quite a graphic
scene). it was at that moment, with Lauren screaming and Jack's
bluish-gray head sticking out and the rest of his body still inside,
that I realized holy crap, i have no idea what to do with this thing.
Fortunately the midwife present did know what to do and he came out
fine, its the next 18 years that i have to worry about.
Aside
from the overwhelming feeling of responsibility, I'm loving being a
dad. Jacks beautiful. I never thought I'd say that about a guy, but
everytime i see him I'm amazed at the intracacy of his creation. I kiss
him too. I never thought I'd do that either. I guess I'll stop before
he gets too old, but right now he's beautiful.
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